nothing’s changed and nothing ever will

You know, I felt happy seeing you even though I knew it was kinda dangerous. You always come at night I've noticed and you try your best to look extra sober. Tonight, I wish I could believe you, I wish you were being real this time and at least, something, even a tiny bit, changed. … Continue reading nothing’s changed and nothing ever will

what ifs and what nots

Today makes it ten days of no contact and I feel okay. I am not sad. I'm not happy. I don't feel any emotion at all. In between these ten days, there were days I felt I could go through with it and days I just wanted to get it over with. It's been hard. … Continue reading what ifs and what nots