Sometimes, instead of always being the helper, give yourself the freedom to be the "friend in need." There is no wrong or shame in asking for help. - Dys Today went pretty good. Went to aunt's with mom and it was nice getting out of the house and out of triggers. Coming back home, I … Continue reading sometimes, I talk even when I’m scared to
Today makes it ten days of no contact and I feel okay. I am not sad. I'm not happy. I don't feel any emotion at all. In between these ten days, there were days I felt I could go through with it and days I just wanted to get it over with. It's been hard. … Continue reading what ifs and what nots
I didn't know how much I missed Dr Peterson till I went on twitter today. In case you didn't know, Jordan Peterson is amazing and my hero (although I think he'd be quite disappointed). For a while I've been obsessed with YouTube. Watching videos and lectures explaining narcissism helps me to recognise the abuse I … Continue reading moving forward is taking long
Maybe the problem is originally mine. Maybe the reason my life is like this is not because of my disorder but just me. Days like this, I struggle to control my mind. I struggle to look away from relief. Yet I can't because I don't want to hurt anybody. I go insane slowly. I don't … Continue reading maybe it’s me.
I learned from a young age to be assertive and not aggressive (most times, no matter how assertive I am, people refused to listen and take heed. So, I went aggressive a couple of times). I was born a really sensitive person and I didn't really like to disappoint people, so I said yes a … Continue reading No Was A War Crime
These days, I find it so hard to sit still. And my mind makes it even harder. It starts at one and ends up at a million and one thoughts. It's being going on like this for years; I don't think it takes a rest when I fall asleep. I have tried to stop thinking … Continue reading Running Away From Myself